Malin

2011-11-07T10:37:00.004+01:00

http://www.malinsworld-forfriends.blogspot.com/

It's official. That's my new blog.
From now on I will only write in that one. I will keep this blog for a while, but I think that I'm going to close this one. We'll see.

2011-09-12T16:51:00.003+02:00

There's a reason why I'm nog blogging at the moment, and I thought that I would let you know.
At the moment, I feel like this blog just brings back so many bad memories for me.
I am thinking about starting a new blog. But I'm not sure at the moment where I'm going to make a new blog. Or how I will do it.
When I have started my new blog, I will let you know here. Where you can find me.

2011-08-04T17:21:00.003+02:00

I know that I totally suck in blogging right now, but I hope that I will get back to "normal" blogging soon.
There has been so much that is going on here, like I wrote in my last post.

I have been fighting with all my feelings about my mother's death, since I have so much inside me when it comes to that. And it's just really hard. And I keep a lot inside me, since I do think or it feels like I always bother everyone when I talk about it. And sometimes it feels like people think "is she still having these feelings, when is she getting over it" maybe it's just in my imagination. And it probably is. But it's hard to get these thoughts out of my head.
There's something else that has been going on here right now as well, but unfortnately I can't write about it here, which has taken a lot of my energy, but it seems to be fine now, or at least I hope so.

I thought that since so many bad things have happened to me lately, nothing more can happend now. I mean, now something good has to happend, but no. My bad luck just keept coming...
About a week ago, my cat started to acting a little weird, he started to have problems with going to the toilet, he could pee a little, but nothing more. It seemed like he had pain in his stomach as well, but I didn't think it was anything serious.
This weekend he stoped eating, and that is not like him, so on monday I called the vet, but I couldn't get in touch with anyone :( Called back on tuesday and got an appointment. I still didn't think it was anything serious. Got to the vet, and she touched his stomach and such things.
I don't know all the medical terms in english that she told me, and I'm not into to the mood and look them up either, but she told me that she felt something in his stomach, that isn't suppose to be there. When she told me that, I was just in shock. She also told me that he needed a lot of treatment, like x-ray several times and finally probably an operation as well. And even with all that treatment it wasn't sure that he was going to be okay. I was so in shock. When she told me that, my heart just broke. I had two options, first was to do all those things that she told me, and not to be sure that he was going to be okay. And the other one was to put him to sleep. I'm a sensitive person, so I just cried and cried.
This was probably one of the hardest decisions I have had to make, but I would NEVER want Norpan to go around for weeks with pain, have to do loads of treatment, probably with some pain and than maybe not be okay in the end anyway. So I decided to put him to sleep.
I just broke my heart into thousand pieces. Norpan was the best, when I was feeling down he always came to me, laid just beside me, it was like he knew. He sleept in my bed EVERY night for 4 years. So now it's just so empty.
This just happends 3 days before my birthday, my first birthday without my mum. And now this. I'm just so tired.
But I know that my baby is with mum in heaven right now.
She loved Norpan and I know that they are together now ♥

RIP ♥

2011-07-28T14:38:00.003+02:00

one of the reasons why I have been so away from here is that it's just something that is going on in my life that has been taken a lot of energy from me, and a lot of time. At least like the last month, but at the moment everything seems to have worked out for the best.

And the 2nd reason is that I have been a little tired of sitting at the computer, I think it has to do with that it's summer and I don't just want to sit by the computer the whole day. I have vactation now, which means that I have 4 weeks off from work, which is really nice. I work next time on August 17th, so I have so time off still :)

And tomorrow it's going to be a beutiful day, one of my best friends is getting married ♥ I know that it's going to be a really beautiful wedding. And I'm soooo curious about the dress :) But I haven't asked anything about the dress since I want it or everything to be a surprise. The only thinkg I know is the cake lol Since the cake comes from my job :P I'm really looking forward to tomorrow! ♥

Earlier today I did something that I have been really nervous about doing for the past 2 months. Something that I have been wanting to do, but I just couldn't do it. And that is visiting my mum's grave. I haven't been there since we put down her urn, and that was in the end of May. It has just been too hard to go there. But today it was time, but it was a short visit. Was too hard to be there. i'm going to try to go there more often.
miss you mum ♥

2011-07-25T08:46:00.002+02:00

I'm sorry haven't forgotten about you. But there's just so much happening in my life right now.
And I'm just so fucking tired of all bad things happening to me.
Life is just crap at the moment.

2011-07-13T08:18:00.001+02:00

This is amazing.
It gives me chills everytime I see it.
Quality isn't so good but their voices. ♥

2011-07-05T09:25:00.002+02:00

The last days has been a little kaotic for me, the weekend that that I have been looking for for so long and that I have been really excited about, ended in a fiasco unfortnately.
On Friday night me and K went to a party at my sister's place, and I had a good time there, it was fun, the only bad side is that when you are going to a festival you go out so early so it felt like when the party started we had to leave.. when we came in to the festival, it wasn't that fun. Some things happened and I don't want to get into that here, just because it doesn't feel right writing about it here, and also because everything has been solved now, and now it just feels really good.
So I don't want to think about that weekend now, and just look forward instead.

This week will be a really long and hard weekend, I think I'm working around 55 hours.. gosh! I'll probably will be dead on sunday. But a good thing is that I have only 9 days left to work than I have 4 weeks holliday! That feels sooo wonderfull. I still can't belive that I will have a month off and get paid for it. It's insane :)

I have to get ready for work now, today I'm working between 11am to 8.30pm so it will be a long day! Gotta go!

2011-07-02T09:53:00.003+02:00

okay, I have edited this post (monday), everything is okay now. I've just been really busy and this week I think I'm working almost 55 hours, so I'll be tired this week, but hopefully I'll give you a better post tonight or tomorrow :)

2011-07-01T06:18:00.001+02:00

Just a quick update before work! couldn't log in here yesterday and give you an update unfortnately! But I'll give you a better update later today when I get home from work.
Tonight I'm going out to Stadsfesten (the festival here) hopefully it will be fun! I'll tell ya more about that tomorrow!
Right now I'm just so freakin tired, I just want to sleep, but I start working in 40 minutes so it's kinda impossible lol

Gotta go!

2011-06-29T10:15:00.003+02:00

Today Stadsfesten starts here in Skellefteå, it's our big festival here (once it was actually called one of sweden's best festivals, but that was many years ago lol) anyways it's starts today, and I have tickets for friday & Saturday night. I'm also a little tempted on going tomorrow night but I start working at 7am on Friday. And it's kinda funny, because this year I will be able to go quite a lot, I'm not working so strange times so I will be able to go, so I have been kinda excited about that since this is like the first year in like.. I don't know.. hmm.. 6 or 7 years that I'm not either working or is sick. So it's fun, but the problem is that now it seems like problem is to find someone who also wants to go.. friday is fixed since a long time, but when I bought my ticket it seemed like many was going than, and now it's not that easy to find someone.. just my luck lol Other years when I haven't been able to go people have asked me from all over if we are going.. it's just so typical :P So we'll see how this weekend will end... if it will be good or fiasco! I want to tonight as well, it's free and it's also the Drakbåtsrodd that is really fun to watch. And the weather is beautiful so that's one more reason. So we'll see where this weekend will end!

I'll give you 2 pictures from last year (when I decided to go one night even if I was working the next day)

2011-06-27T23:45:00.002+02:00

Tonight me and K saw the 4th Saw movie, gosh these movies are just insane, still don't understand why I see them and WHY I like them.. and there are 3 more of them too... I'm probably going to dream a lot of nightmares before we are finished with them lol

Now I think it's bedtime for me, and hopefully I can sleep long tomorrow so I won't be that tired during the day before work, so I actually can stay awake before work!

Good Night!

2011-06-27T13:41:00.001+02:00

I've done it again, and I'm getting so tired of myself because of it. The last like 3 weeks when I either have had a day off from work of start working in the afternoon (at 2.30pm) I sleep most of the day, now I have sleep 1½ hour and it happends almost everyday when I either have a day off or start working late. why... I'm so tired of beeing this tired all the time

soon it's work time, but first I'll watch Backstreet Boys on Oprah :) Don't know how many times I've seen it lol but it's something special when it's on tv :)

2011-06-27T11:38:00.002+02:00

antoher new day. today I'm feeling okay, but it goes up and down. I never visited my mums grave yesterday, I just didn't have the energy to do that. Hopefully I will be able to go there one day soon.
right now I'm not doing so much before work, I'm just so tired all the time, and it's so annoying. I can sleep almost all the time.
Last night me and K continued watching the Saw movies, we saw the first one on saturday, and the second and third yesterday. I want to see them all again, since they are just so good. But when I do watch them, I can't understand why I see them.. haha! But they are just so good! :) We'll see when I will see the last 3, if K will see them as well with me or not!

On Friday we celabrated midsummer here in Sweden, I was in our summer house and we had an okay evening, only boring thing was that I wanted to play more games and such things but my sister and her friends didn't want to do that, which wasn't that fun. But I give you a picture from that night!

2011-06-26T12:50:00.002+02:00

Sunday today, and I'm not doing so much, which actually is really nice. I'm just really tired and not in such a mood of doing anything.

I actually don't know what to write here, there are so many things that are going on in my head that I wish that I could write or talk about. But it's kinda impossible for me to get them out of my mouth and into words. Or write it down. I just can't. And because of that, I think too much. And I don't know, sometimes, I do believe that I create problems when I think too much, it might sound a little weird, I can't write what it's about, but sometimes it feels like that. And also since the past 2 years, so much has happened in my life, my life has turned upside down. It has made me think that good things can't happend to me. Also it's hard to trust people. And I hate that I have these feelings, but it's just so hard to make them go away. I just wish that I could go to bed one night and not have these thoughts. and think postive thoughts. and I just miss my mum so much. It just hurt so much. when she was alive and you were feeling down, you could just call her and talk to her, we could just talk about anything, like the weather and you would start feeling better. sometimes I just don't know what to do. was thinking about going to her grave today, but I don't think I have the strength to do that today, maybe later, not now.
Anyways I just had to write down some of my feelings.. hope I didn't bore you.

2011-06-23T10:18:00.001+02:00

I want this tour to Europe ♥
okay, you can ignore the NKOTB part, I don't care about them.
But the other 4 ♥

2011-06-20T18:15:00.002+02:00

This is love. The feeling when you see this is just priceless.
I can't even tell you the feelings I get inside ♥
they haven't performed with this song since 1999.
So this is insane.

2011-06-20T18:07:00.002+02:00

I must say that I'm a little dissappointed that no one has left a comment telling me who you are, since I see that you visit my blog, just don't know who you are :(

oh well, I know I have been gone for like 2-3 weeks but work has been so crazy and I have had so much other things to do so I haven't had time to write here! Hopefully everything will calm down now a little :)I have had my day off from work today which has been really nice. And I have my day off tomorrow too... ♥ it :)

2011-05-27T11:49:00.001+02:00

I see that I still have some visitors... l would love if you'd leave a comment and tell me who you are :)

2011-05-27T10:06:00.002+02:00

As I promised, Now I'll tell you a little about my trip to Barcelona together with my dad and sister.
Our flight left Skellefteå on Friday April 1st at 11.30am. Our flight to Girona airport took about 3-4 hours. Flew with Ryan air, have heard a lot of bad things about flying with them, but I didn't think it was a problem at all.
Came to Girona which is about one hour from Barcelona. When we walked out from the plane it was sunny and +24, wasn't prepared on that at all. But it was lovely.
Got to our hotel, stayed at Hotel Barcelona Universal, which was a really nice hotel, if anyone is going to Barcelona, stay there, it was really nice rooms, good location, nice staff etc
That night we just walked around and walked to La rambla. Had dinner and so.
On Saturday we got up early,we decided to take a Barcelona City Tour Hop on Hop Off bus. On Saturday we saw Port Vell, the beach, Segrada Familia, Park Guell and many other things that I don't remember the name of :P On the night we walked to the Montjuic, which is also the magic fountain which was really cool to see. That day we were really lucky with the weather as well, was sunny and hot. I didn't think much of it when we were outside but when we got back to our hotel I noticed how red I was lol... wasn't looking good at all haha!
On Sunday, we also took the Hop On Hop Off Bus. Saw many things that day as well like Placa Espanya, the olympic stadium, the catedral but one of the coolest things we saw, at least what I thought was Camp Nou, even if I'm not a big fotball fan it was cool to go inside that arena and go on a tour there, since it was huge. I liked it a lot :)
That was the last day in Barcelona and since we had a really early flight on Monday morning we had booked a room at a hotel close to the airport. So we got there on Sunday night.
I liked Barcelona a lot as a city, the only thing that I wish was that we could have done some more shopping and not go inside every church and every "special" building since I'm not that interested in that, at least not go inside EVERY single one, but my dad and sister are more interested in that and not shopping so that's why. Maybe I'll go there once again, but maybe with friends this time.

2011-05-24T13:04:00.002+02:00

In my last post I was talking about the cruise, and also the Karaoke night. Which was just hysterical ;) Well here are a couple of my videos that are proof that it was just insane :)

The most hysterical part.. there are no words lol

BSB Bust a move

2011-05-23T22:09:00.007+02:00

As I said earlier, I promised you some short stories about my trips that I have done lately, and I thought that I could start with my USA trip in December, I'm going to try to make it short :) You can click on the picture to make them bigger as well.

December 5th-6th; We first spendt one night in New York, it was a good flight to NY and no problems there. We stayed at a hotel called Edison which was located in the middle of Time Square. The feeling you got when you got to Time Sqaure the first time is really hard to explain. It was just wow. First night we just walked around, walked a lot. Saw a lot of awesome things. But we were really tired and very jetlagged to went to bed quite early. Next morning we got up early. Walked to central park and just walked around. We didn't have so much time in NY since we had a flight to Miami to get on. I wish that we had more time in NY since there are so many things you want to see.

December 6th-8th; We arrived to Miami late, around 11pm so it was straight to bed. Next day the first thing we did was walk to the beach, it was so amazing. Our hotel was located really close to Miami beach. That day we just walked around, did some shopping. One thing I LOVED about beeing on USA was shopping at Victoria Secret! OMG so many nice things! Anyways, that night we didn't do so much. We bought some wine and stayed at the hotel to make our door deco for the cruise. Next day it was nice weather so we decided to hang out at the beach. I loved it there. Were there for a couple of hours. Before we met up with my penpal from Canada, was so much fun to met her, was the first time we met each other :) That night it was time for the acoustic concert with BSB. It was such an awesome show. I had so much fun and they sounded amazing. After the show it was M&G time to we got to met them and take a pic with them. Afterwards it was back to the hotel and bedtime

December 9th-13th; The BIG day. Time for the cruise. We had been waiting for 9 MONTHS for this. Got to the ship around 11am. We could get on the ship almost right away. Was so cool. And we saw some of the boys right away which was really unreal. Just to know that we were going to be on the same boat as them for several days. First day it was time for Family Feud game and She's a dream game, both games were a lot of fun. Next was Welcome Cocktail Party and open bar, which was really dangerous :P And a lot of fun. Next dinner and after it was the first deck party which was International LUV night. Had so much fun and the boys were craaazy! Don't know when we got to bed, probably around 3-4am. On Friday we docked in Key West, so we got up around 7am = not much sleep. But I wasn't so impressed by Key West, don't know if it was because I was so tired. Or that we didn't have to much time there. But we saw a little before we went back to the ship. Just walked around the ship. We left Key west at 2pm. Our next thing on the schedule was Q&A, we sat almost for 2 hours listening to the boys answering questions, was a lot of fun. That night it was Masqurade night and captains dinner. So we had to dress up that night for dinner. The theme party for that deck party was Masqurade, had a lot of fun there as well. And it was really late that night as well.

On Saturday morning we relaxed some before we came to Cozumel, Mexico. There it was time for our Beach Party, so we left the boat for a few hours. Beach party was fun, but it wasn't like we thought.
There were some games and such things. We had lunch there and there was an open bar there
as well. They had really cood Pina Coladas, I loved them.
But the Playa del Mia resort was so beautiful. And Cozumel was beautiful as well.
That night we didn't have energy to dress up and eat dinner in the restaurant so we ate in the buffé. That night was karaoke night. That was the thing that I didn't think was going to be so fun, but it ended up beeing hysterical. I laughed so much, it was insane. Karaoke ended around 2am.. don't know when we got to bed, late

On Sunday it was Fun Day at Sea, we just were chillin on the boat, was in the sun. It was also photosession, time go get our group picture. That nights theme was Black & Blue. So we got ready before dinner. After the dinner it was time for the concert. It was the same concert as on the This is us tour. So the 3rd time I saw the same concert, but it was awesome this time as well. That night it was really windy and you could really feel the boat moving. We were suppose to have a deck party that night as well. But it was too windy to be outside. It was really insane, so they decided to take the party inside to the club instead, which was the worst thing they could do. Not all could come in (but we did) and it wasn't fun at all inside. So I decided to go to bed around 3am or something like that.

Monday morning, woke up around 7am and we were already docked in Miami :( And all the fun was over. Those days felt like one, it was way to quickly, but we had so much fun. I could tell you so much more but it would take forever and you probably don't want to read about it. But the coolest thing was that you could ran into the boys, their families, friends etc at anytime, anyplace. Saw them several times around the boat, but I didn't want to bother them, they should have some kind of privacy as well.

December 13th-15th; After the cruise, we had one more night in Miami. Got to our hotel. We did some shopping at a mall that was close to our hotel. I bought some more things at Victoria Secret :P That day I feelt more and more that I wasn't feeling so good. I had a huge cold already. And just felt worse, I think I ended up falling a sleep at 5pm and woke up 8am the next day. But I had a huge fever as well. Not fun at all. On Tuesday we had to get up to go to the airport. Our flight to NY from Miami left around 12. We had a night flight from NY to Stockholm, but it was awfull since I had a fever. Came back to Stockholm and had to wait there for 9 hours for my flight to Skellefteå, wasn't fun at all... esp since I wasn't feeling good. But I survived.

So that was a little about my trip to USA! I hope I didn't bore you too much with it :)

2011-05-22T08:08:00.002+02:00

It wasn't an easy night last night, it's strange that just a day can effect you like that. I felt like I was completely off the whole night. Everytime that I have had nights like that, I have turned off the tv, computer and just been in bed, doing nothing.
Just wanted to be alone.
Last night I actually got company for a few hours, which was new for me when I'm feeling like this. Even if I felt like the worst company ever and didn't feel social at all. It felt good that I wasn't alone. So I'm glad that he was here, just for a little while.
Now it's time to go to work!

2011-05-21T17:41:00.003+02:00

♥ 6 months ago today. RIP mum. Just with that I could talk and see your face one more time ♥

2011-05-20T18:44:00.003+02:00

I know that it has been a really long time ago since I updated here, don't know if I
still have any readers, if I have any readers that will come back.
I have actually the past week thought about this blog and realized that I want to
be active here again.
I just need to get the inspiration back to write in here. I hope that it will come
back.

So my last post was back in January, gosh was it that long time ago?! My life
has changed quite a lot since than. If I go back to my last post about that package,
I don't feel like writing the whole story about D, and everything about that situation.
Me and D have talked like 3 or 4 times since my last post, but not in the phone, just
through sms and e-mail. I still can't understand what happened, not that I go around
and think about it, I'm 100% over it. But I'm still pissed how people think that they
can treat me. It has been too many times. To be honest, I don't know how many times
it has been feeling like I have had a sign in my head saying "Welcome, come and
play with my feelings". Please just be honest and don't lie to me instead. But a lot
of people in my past don't seem to think that I have feelings.

Actually saw M in town the other day, was almost a year ago since I saw M the last time,
I thought that M had moved from here, that's what that person told me, but apparently
not, but I don't care, just thought it was kinda funny :P

If I go back exactley one year up to now, it has been such a crazy year. It has been
the worst year of my life. A year ago we still hadn't got the news about my mums
illness, we still had hope about that she was going to be healthy again. We still hadn't
got the devasted news that the doctors couldn't do anything more.
On Saturday it's exactley 6 months ago since mum passed away. I have no idea how
I will feel on Saturday. It doesn't go one day that I don't think of her. I still cry myself
to sleep often. I don't know even know how often, that the last thing I see inside me when
I go to bed, is the last time I saw my mum, after she passed. It's just awfull.
I don't know how many nights when I go to bed I'm awake for hours just because I can't
stop thinking about her.
I just miss her so much that it hurts. But it's just hard to talk about.
I often put on a happy smile face, just because that it's just much easier, just because
it feels like I bother everyone else when I talk about these things.

I just realized that I haven't written anything about my cruise either back in December!
Had an amazing time. Was a lot of fun! In April I travelled to Barcelona, Spain together with
my dad and sister. Also 2 weeks ago I travelled to Berlin, Germany together with
3 friends to see Nick :) Was also a lot of fun!
But I'll tell you about those trips in other posts :)

Hopefully it won't be months untill I'll update here again ;)

Me in Barcelona, Spain

2011-01-27T11:58:00.002+01:00

Yesterday I sended a package in the mail, and it's going to be interesting to see if I get a reaction or not. That person should get that package today or tomorrow. I felt that I had to do it.
But I don't know what kind of reaction that I want either. Maybe that person won't get in touch with me, maybe that person will text me or call me.. but f that person call me, I don't know what to say. But I don't know. We'll see.
For some reason it feels like I never will hear from that person again.

2011-01-25T12:35:00.002+01:00

Our group picture from the cruise.
Me and my friends.
The best thing you can't see on the picture is that
both Nick & AJ is holding their arms around me lol :)

2011-01-25T08:15:00.003+01:00

Good Morning!

Tuesday morning and today I'll work day 9 of 9... it will feel really nice when I go home tonight after work since I have 2 days off than. Lovely.

But right now it feels like I'm living like a zombie. I sleep really bad at the moment, there are just so many things that are on my mind right now. The last months so much has happened in my life and it has taken so much energy out of me, and soon I don't have so much left inside me and to be honest I don't know what to do. Since everything is going against me.
And right now I feel like a total fool. And it's one of the worst feelings ever. Just don't get it. I try so hard to not think of it. Because I KNOW I haven't done anything wrong. But it's hard.

Have a nice day!

Morning in Key West, what a nice way to woke up to, from our balcony

2011-01-24T12:12:00.002+01:00

If I only could turn back time...

2011-01-23T20:05:00.004+01:00

I think my body is starting to say no, there's just so much going on in my life right now.
And there's just so much that I would like to write about. I think that I would feel better.
But at the moment there's just so much going on inside me. There's just so much bad things
going on here, and I don't know why these things keep happening to me, I really don't
feel like I'm allowed to be happy. Beacause EVERY time I get a little happy and think
that I will be happy and that now finally... well no something happends and and I'm back
feeling like this again. And to be honest, I don't know how much more bad things I can take.

Me in Key West, taken from our balcony at the ship on the cruise

Me at the Black & Blue party at the cruise

2011-01-21T18:43:00.000+01:00

2 months ago.
miss you so much.
RIP mum ♥

2011-01-21T06:37:00.002+01:00

Right now I wish that I could turn back time, time to a place where I was happy.
Where I didn't have to think about real life.
I could just enjoy myself for a few days, and just think about ME.
I would do ANYTHING to get a few days like that now.
Need it more than ever. Need to do something fun, to get some things
out of my mind just for a little while.
But it probably won't happend.

Me after the Beach Party in Cozumel, Mexico

2011-01-20T06:07:00.002+01:00

I'm so sorry that I haven't written here in ages, but the last 2 months, so much has happened
here and I haven't had energy for the blog.
Right now my life is just a total mess, and it's just hell right now it feels like. And I'm so tired, I haven't sleept good in several days.
And now I have to get ready.. put on my fake happy face and go to work. Life is wonderfull. Or not.

2010-11-22T08:04:00.000+01:00

RIP Mum! ♥

2010-10-17T08:36:00.002+02:00

Good Morning!

what a lovely day! Or!? Well first that it's sunday and I'm up now... that's not so fun! But I blame that on my cat lol
Today I have my day off from work which is really nice. Well my plans for the day aren't that much, I probably will go to town, I have a few things to do there, and I'll probably go and see my mum as well! At last but not least, the funniest thing.. clean my appartment, it looks like hell in here right now haha!

So I better get started with the cleaning since it will take a while :P

2010-10-16T08:28:00.002+02:00

I had been planning on sleeping long this morning... since I start working at 12 today, but at 7.40am I got a call from my mum... and she asked what I was doing... lol :P she asked if I was awake or not haha
She started talking about food and she wanted some food from work, so I'm going there to have an early lunch before work, my uncle's wife is there with her since I guess my dad is out doing something else, I guess he is at our summer house! So I'll go to them with some food before work!

Besides that I'm not doing so much, I'm only working 4 hours today, to 4pm. Which is wonderfull, it's normally my day off today, but I'm working extra! I think I'll just sleep tonight, because I have been sooo tired latley.
Tomorrow I have my day off, than I'm going to town and look a little, but besides that I don't have so many plans, and it feels good!

Well I gotta go now!

Great song ♥

2010-10-15T10:20:00.003+02:00

Soo yesterday it snowed here for the first time this winter, or it doesn't even feel like winter, I mean it's only the middle of October.. it's insane! And the worst thing is that the snow is still here this morning :( I don't want winter.. it totally sucks!
Luckily I have some good things to look forward to! :) Next weekend and my trip in December! :)

By the way, Nina, if you read this, I need to get in contact with you.. but I'm not sure about your e-mail adress.. you got mine or?! Send me an e-mail when you got the time :)

2010-10-11T09:27:00.002+02:00

I'm a little late with giving you an update, but I've been really busy! But I'm going to try to give you an update what is going on here at the moment.

As for work, I'm working a lot, and I have soon worked 2 months on my new schedule that I have for my permanent job. It's a good schedule and I like it.
Most of the time when I'm not working, I try to spend as much time as possible at my parents place, since my mum isn't getting any better. But it's really exhausting as well since it takes a lot of energy from you, because when you are there you have to help her with everything. And I work almost full time at my job and than it's like work there as well, don't get me wrong, I want to be there and help her, but it takes a lot of enery from you.
This whole situation takes so much energy from me, which makes me tired all the time as well. But I try to be as strong as I can, the time we have left with her.
In exactley 2 months I'm on a boat! :) This is one of the good things in my life that I'm sooo looking forward to at the moment.
There are a few news about my trip as well, I can start with the night before the cruise, BSB are going to have an acoustic show the night before the cruise in Miami. When the tickets went on sale, it was so chaotic, we guess they released around 300 tickets since the theatre that the acoustic show is at takes so many people. And the tickets sold out in like less than a minute. It was sooo insane! BUT me and all my Swedish friends (we are 5 from Sweden who are going on the cruise) got tickets for the acoustic show! YAY!! I'm so happy!
I never thought that we would get tickets! In that ticket there's also a 20 min Q&A, Meet & Greet and a group pic with the boys. So excited!
And on the cruise, in Mexico they are having a beach party where I also have bought my tickets for. Which is going to be awesome as well. Can't wait for that!
And just the other day we got our themes for the cruise as well ;) First night there's INTERNATIONAL LUV ... they want us to dress up with something that shows where you are from, so that is going to be aweseom! We from Sweden are planning on maybe wearing same clothes.. but we have ideas :) On Friday there's MASQURADE.. which is also the formal night, so I'll probably wear my black dress that I bought for the formal night and wear a mask for it, and I think I might have found that one as well. on Saturday there isn't a theme since we aren't on the boat the whole day. And last on Sunday there's the theme BLACK&BLUE .. which comes from their album, and I also think that I know what to wear that night, So this is so exciting! And I'm so happy about the themes since I don't have to buy so many things for it, and I was mostly worried about that, and that I had to buy something really special that I had to bring, because I can't bring that much stuffs :P
But I'm really excited :)
And there's something else that is going on here right now as well, something that really surprised me, that I didn't expected at all. No idea what will happend now. But I'm curious to find out, and at the moment it feels good. However I can't say much more than that at the moment lol :P But I was really surprised about it!
I also try to spend time with my friends and also to have some fun :P
I went to the musical Grease yesterday, they are on tour here in Sweden with a swedish version. And I totally LOVED it! It was amazing! I had a lot of fun!
My cat has also been sick.. but now he is doing much better which feels really good!!

Well that's about it, I'm not doing so much at the moment, I'm mostly just working, sleeping and spending time at my parent's place!
I'm going to try to update my blog more often now, I know I have said that like a million of times lol, but I'm going to try ;) well now I better go and get ready, I'm going to town in a while to have lunch with Tina :)

2010-10-08T06:24:00.000+02:00

Sooo sorry for not writing here... but soon I will give you an update what is going on here, but the last weeks has been so chaotic!! Hopefully this weekend I write a long post what I have done lately!!

2010-09-22T19:06:00.001+02:00

Now it's OFFICAL! There will be an acoustic BSB show the night before the cruise in
Miami!! I'm sooooo going if I can get tickets! YAY!!

2010-09-15T22:38:00.001+02:00

I have just booked a spot at the Beach Party in Cozumel at
the cruise!! Soooo excited :)

It's a 4 hour party with a DJ, BSB will be there, food, open bar
and a lot of other things!
So excited!

2010-09-06T10:50:00.000+02:00

-I'm looking forward to the day, when it's my turn to be happy-

2010-08-30T19:42:00.002+02:00

Sometimes it feels like I should remove this blog, since I'm almost never write here at the moment. But at the same time, soon I might get in a "blogging mood" again!
I just thought that I could say that one of the reasons why I feel like crap at the moment is because my mum isn't doing so good. Which takes a lot of energy from me.
I put a lot of energy to put on a normal face and focus on work. But I don't have energy to be happy all the time. It's just really hard!

2010-08-23T21:08:00.002+02:00

Just so tired of everything. Just don't know what to do.
I just want to be happy, I mean when is it my turn to be happy?
When is it time for good things happening to me?
When is it my turn to give out a happy face/smile and actually
mean it?!
Well... I guess that good things aren't suppose to happend to me.

2010-08-23T08:57:00.003+02:00

Well, since I'm not in the mood for blogging at the moment... I can be back tomorrow or next week... don't know at the moment, But you can fallow me on twitter

www.twitter.com/Malin84

2010-08-01T15:25:00.000+02:00

so sorry for not updating here.. but the past month has been chaotic! I have been feeling like crap! and I have also been sick! But soon I'm back like normal!!

2010-07-05T19:07:00.002+02:00

I know I haven't updated here. But I just don't know what to write.
Because at the moment my life is hell. I have never in my life felt like this.
I'm lost with words, because this is the worst thing that ever has happened
to me and I just don't know what to do.
I just want to get strength to get through this, because at the moment
I have no energy at all. I just feel so empty inside.
I just don't know what to do.

2010-06-29T16:49:00.002+02:00

I just don't know what to do at the moment, I feel so empty inside... I have sleept 3 hours this night... I haven't eaten anything today... I'm just so tired... my eyes are so swollen.. but I can't sleep... and I can't eat. I'm just sitting here, and have done that since like 7am this morning..

2010-06-28T21:16:00.001+02:00

nooooooooooo *crying*

2010-06-24T10:14:00.004+02:00

Where has this week disappeared?!?
The days has just poof... and now it's thursday! What happened?! lol
Don't know where to start!
The Party on Saturday was sooo much fun! We had such a great time talking,
drinking, dancing and just everything! I can show you a few pictures!

Me and Stina

Stina, Me and Linnea

Stina and her boyfriend Micke!

We had an amazing night!

So what has happened since than... I have been working... sleeping... working.. sleeping... and yeah.. that's my life at the moment! And soon I'm going to work AGAIN!

Well I can tell you a little about my thughts about what happened soon a week ago in New York. There has been a lot of rumours in the BSB world about a big surprise that was going to happend in NY on the 19th.
of course the BSB fans had figured out before what it probably could be. And we were actually right haha! BSB made a surprise visit at a NKOTB concert! And sang a little with them.

There are rumours that there will be a BSB/NKOTB tour, but to be honest I hope it won't be, since I've never liked NKOTB, and I might have heard like 2 songs with them. But I guess we will find out in the next coming months.

well guess what, I gotta go to work lol

2010-06-19T18:22:00.002+02:00

Have a great Saturday everyone!
I'm off to a party tonight!
Will be loads of fun! :)

2010-06-17T19:29:00.002+02:00

So I'm home again, my hair is a lot shorter now and it feels really good!
I don't want to show you the after pic because I look awfull! I look so tired on
it... oh well.. I show it to you anyway :P

2010-06-17T15:30:00.003+02:00

Lately I have been so tired of my hair. So yesterday I went to the hairdresser and booked a time to cut my hair! And they had a time today so in 1½ hour I'm going to cut my hair! YAY!
I have no ideo what I want to do with it, so it will be fun!
I took a pre picture, how it is now, remember that my hair isn't fixed and that I have been working all day with my hair in a hat so it looks awfull :P But I take an after pic when I get home :)

2010-06-15T18:44:00.003+02:00

OMG this is just hysterical.

This is from BSB's soundcheck a few days ago in USA.
Nick in this videos is priceless.. and Brian haha!
I never knew that Nick could sing like that, and it doesn't even sound like him
and to watch Brian when Nick sings haha
BSB-Shattered

This is how it should sound ;)
(this is also my video)

This really made my day :)

2010-06-13T20:27:00.003+02:00

Sometimes I get really scared of this town. It's insane because EVERYONE knows everyone!
Since I really don't know who reads this and don't, I can't say any names and what it's about.
But there's a situation where I thought I didn't have to think about that we could run into each other, for me it wouldn't be weird, because I'm not the one who has been acting weird.
However it would be more strange for the other person. Anyways the other day I found out that we do have a "friend" in common and I talked to another friend about it today and gosh haha... it's not impossible that we can run into each other. But it would be kinda funny.. just to see that person's reaction because that would probably be the last that person expected lol
But it's like this in Skellefteå! lol
But it was just really funny! Couldn't stop laughing!

2010-06-12T08:12:00.005+02:00

RIP Sigge!

Now you and Roy can run and play together in dog heaven like
you always did together.
You will be missed.

(it's my uncle's dog)

2010-06-11T20:08:00.002+02:00

wow at the moment I'm just really confused. Don't understand what happened really. I don't even know if I should care or not. I shouldn't because I don't want to waste my energy on that.
But I just can't understand how some people think. It's just really weird.
And the thing that I saw today, there must be something more behind the situation that
that person didn't tell me about.
But I don't want to think about this, I don't want to waste my time on it, even if it's really hard.
Because I'll never will get any answers, even if I noticed something today... if I say like this, it's a small world. So it would be really typical if me and this person will run into each other. But the chance isn't so big, so hopefully not.

Tina, you asked who I met at work, you know who it is, think back many years and his
name starts with an O and you probably can imagine
that it was a little weird for me.

2010-06-10T21:43:00.003+02:00

Sometimes funny things happens at work. Since I'm working at the biggest café in Skellefteå, we have a lot of customers. And I met loads of people and customers everyday so now and than people I know from many years ago comes in. And just that happened today. And just that person comes in now and than, but luckily that person haven't bought things from me so often, but today he did.
And it's just so weird, because I never know if I should pretend that I don't recognize him, but how weird wouldn't that be.. but at the same time I don't think it's right to start talking because, I think that he thinks that it's as awkward as I do. Since we kinda have a weird past.
I'm just happy that situations like this doesn't happend very often lol

(this is the place I'm working at)

2010-06-10T10:50:00.002+02:00

I'm a little dissappointed that no one seems to want to tell me who they are, only Nina did and a big thumb up for you hun :)

Unfortnatley at the moment, it feels like I'm getting a cold and it really sucks! I don't
have time to get sick at the moment :( It's so much to do at work so I
really hope that I don't get sick!

Well now I have to go and start cleaning, my appartment is a total mess!

2010-06-09T13:33:00.000+02:00

I can't stop listen to this song. It's just so good.

I ♥ it

2010-06-08T21:43:00.001+02:00

Soooo who are you all my mystery readers?!? I see that you are reading my blog, but you are really bad in giving me comments! So who are you!?! :)
It only takes a few seconds to tell me who you are, please :)

2010-06-08T12:05:00.002+02:00

It's strange. Sometimes I wonder how some people think. How people can change their opinion over night, or at least it feels like that. But I don't know, maybe I saw it wrong. But I don't think so.
But I think it can be kinda fascinating. Even if I really don't understand. And I don't think I will either. But I can't do much about it. Unfortnately.

I end this post with 3 awesome videos. I really wish that I was there!

2010-06-07T13:13:00.002+02:00

Another new day today! Not a good day today either. Gosh I hate this. I'm so tired of this.
And it's kinda weird because I think my cat feels when I'm not feeling too well, because normally when I'm home I don't see him that much, he's mostly sleeping in the closet or on the bed... but when I'm feeling like this, he is always around me, he is always lying close to me. I guess he feels when I need that.

2010-06-06T22:42:00.003+02:00

I just hate have these feelings... I just hate it. This hasn't been a good weekend.
At least I can hope that the week will be better... I just wish that I for once could be a little happy
when I go to bed!
I just hate it when it's like this... oh well I'm going to bed now. I'm going to stop complaining because I don't want to bore you with this... I'm going to stop with it now.

2010-06-06T07:12:00.002+02:00

Gosh, it's not nice to be up at this time on a Sunday morning, I work between 9am to 6.30pm today so I shouldn't had to get up yet, but I do have a cat, that thinks that it's so fun to wake me up some mornings, he started at 5am today... climbing on me, jumping on me and do everything that he could... at 6.30am it was enough for me haha... most of the times I love my cat, but this morning he was pain the ass :P

This weeekend I have mostly just been working, on the days anyway, kinda weird that when I work weekends they seem to be forever, but when you have the weekend off they go really fast, it's strange :)
But yesterday at work something good happened, we had a lot to do, and we got flowers! I wish that I could say that it was because we were good or that it was from a secret admire or something like that... but it wasn't :P I think I leave out the real reason why we got them, but it was really nice that they thought of us and gave them to us :)

The other day I was watching some of my videos from the Robbie Williams concerts I went to in 2006... gosh it's already 4 years ago! But it was just so awesome, absolutely one of the BEST shows I have ever seen!

(The quality kinda sucks because of youtube...)

2010-06-05T18:40:00.005+02:00

I don't want this blog to be a depressing blog.. but sometimes I just have to write down my feelings.. and if you see this coming, you don't have to continue reading ....
I'm just getting tired of my life, and I just want to be happy. I mean why can't something good happend to me sometimes?! It's always bad things, it just sucks. I'm just so jealous of people that are happy. because I also want to feel that feeling...

But I don't want to bore you with this....I'm good in put on my happy face, and that's also me, but sometimes I just have to write this! Because there are just so many bad things that has happened in my life if you compare to good things...unfortnately

2010-06-01T08:42:00.000+02:00

Gosh I'm sooo bored!! It really sucks! Hate this lol

2010-05-30T08:55:00.002+02:00

I just woke up, and sometimes I get a little scared of my dreams that I have sometimes, because this night has been really weird! haha! But it wasn't a good dream though, But the thing is that I woke up several times during the night and I thought it was for real and I was really pissed, so when I woke up for real this morning I was upset but soon realized that it was just a dream.
it's weird how dreams can affect you like this lol

Today it's Mother's Day here in Sweden, and exactley one year ago since mum had to go to the hospital, but I don't want to think about that today!

I'm going to my sister later today, don't know when exactley yet, I'm going to call her later!

2010-05-29T21:21:00.002+02:00

Gosh I'm just so tired today. Even if I didn't come home that late last night, maybe around 11.30pm or something like that... I'm not sure! But when I came home, one of my neighbours had a party and I couldn't sleep because of that, so I really don't know when I fell a sleep.. closer to 2am I think.. and I had to get up at 5.20am to go to work.. and than I worked to 11am.
Went to town and bought some things.. got home and had some things to do here!
I sleept for like 2 hours when I came home, and have been sleeping tonight as well... just woke up and thought I could watch Eurovision Song Contest... even if we aren't in the finale this year :(
Don't know what happened ... I mean.. Anna did a really good job and her song is much better than many of them!

Well I better continue watching ESC and see how long I will see before I fall a sleep again lol

2010-05-28T18:26:00.003+02:00

Now it's friday and the weekend is here! Really nice :)
So what will happend this weekend for me than... tonight I'm going to M's place and we're going to watch a movie, so I think that this will be a good night!
The only bad thing about this weekend is that I have to work a few hours tomorrow.. I start at 6am so I have no idea how dead I will be tomorrow, since if I know myself right I won't go to bed in time tonight haha! But I only have to work till 11am tomorrow so that is good!
after that tomorrow I have to go to town to try to find a mothers day present for my mum from me and my sister, I have no idea what we're going to buy!
And on Sunday it's Mother's Day so we (my family and grandmother) are going to have dinner at my sister's place! I hope that this Mother's Day will be better than last year, on Sunday it's exactley one year ago we found out that mum is sick and we spended that day and the coming days at the hospital... can't belive that a year has passed by... a lot of treatments... 2 operations and a lot of doctors visits! So this weekend is kinda hard!

Well I better go now, since I'm going to be at M's place in an hour and I have some things to do before than!

2010-05-27T11:03:00.002+02:00

One year ago today, I had no idea that my life would change on the next coming days.
It's insane how the last year has been for me. It has been probably the worst year of my life.
But at the same time, some really awesome things has happened as well, and if those things didn't happend I guess this year really had been crap.

Now I have to go and get ready for work!

2010-05-26T12:01:00.002+02:00

At the moment I'm going towards some really difficult days, and I have no idea how these days will be. A lot of things is going on in my mind at the moment.

2010-05-26T09:57:00.003+02:00

So yesterday I finally saw the last episode of Lost, and I really have mixed feelings about it.
My first reaction was that I didn't like it at all. I was really dissappointed, and was mad :P
I wanted more answers!!
It feels like if that end had came after like season 3 it would have been better, but I didn't like how they made the last season, esp since so much happened in season 4 & 5 which was really good and than season 6 came and was totally weird from the other ones.. at least that is what I feel.
But in my opinion I didn't like the end at all, maybe I have to see the last seasaon one more time to actually like it.

2010-05-24T09:22:00.003+02:00

haha OMG! The funniest thing happened yesterday!
I was on twitter and it's very rare that I'm writing there the same time as any of the guys in BSB! I always miss when they write there. Anyways, when I'm there, I get a new tweet and it's Brian who is writing that he is on the plane going to NY, they were doing a fan event there yesterday.
So I wrote t him "Good luck! I wish that I could be there"

I have NEVER got an answer from any of them! (although I have been on both Brian and BSB's twitter with a picture of me and my friends from when they were on promotion here)
But right after I have tweeted that, I see that Brian has written TO ME!!
But the funny thing is that this is what he write

" brian_littrell@Malin84 house is a good show, I like it. I don't know the actors though. Chirp chirp"

When I finally get a tweet from any of them, he sends his tweet to the wrong person!! HAHA!
Someone must probably have asked him what he though about the tv show House and he was going to answer that person, but at the same time he saw what I wrote and sends that answer to me instead! haha! I couldn't stop laughing!

I took a printscreen so you can see :) If you click on the pictures they get bigger :)

The first pic is from his twitter page :)

And the 2nd one is from mine, where you can see what he wrote and what I wrote back and what the wrote to me ;)

2010-05-23T12:52:00.002+02:00

So far this weekend has been really good, it has been really interesting, but at the same time a little confusing, both in a good and a bad way... lol.. can't say much more than this. I have no idea what will happend now, and NO it's not work that I'm talking about for once haha! But I'm curious what is going to happend, because I have no idea and it feels just.. I don't know.. haha.. sorry for these confusing things but sometimes I just have to write it down!

In about 1½ hour I'm going to met a friend at a café and just talk a little, it will be really fun :) I have some gossip for her hihi!

And tonight is a big night, it's the 2 last episodes of Lost! Okay, it's in USA but it means that I can watch them tomorrow night! Can't wait!

2010-05-12T12:16:00.004+02:00

Soon it's time for me to go to work! And it's so wnderfull, now I'm working 9 days in a row. Life can't get any better lol :P

But the sun is shining and it's kinda hot outside (at least it was when I was out walking this morning) so that is good :)

2010-05-11T11:29:00.002+02:00

Today is a really nice day, I started the day with my everyday walk! Only too bad that the weather is kinda bad today, but now I actually see a little sun! YAY!
I'm also doing laundry today, but I'm only doing one machine, I needed to wash my working clothes! I'm soon going down to the basement to pick them up!
In a few hours I'll go to town to met my sister there, and go and look in some stores and later today I fallow my parents to the grocery store! So that's my day :)

Yesterday I picked up my passport, my first passport ever! YAY! When I have it in my hands I realize that I'm actually going! I still don't believe that I'm going lol But I must say one thing, all my friends who aren't going, that I normally do these things with, I don't say any names but you know who you are, this trip won't be the same without you! And I really wish that you all could come too! But I will have fun for you as well and I will tell the boys hi for you ;)

Now I have to go and pick up my clothes, I think they are dry now :)

2010-05-06T14:23:00.003+02:00

I can tell you the latest about my BSB cruise :)
We have now booked our flights and everything! I can tell you our travelling schedule!

Saturday December 4th my flight to Stockholm goes. I arrive there in the middle of the day. And that night I have booked a room at a hotel at Arlanda airport. I have friends in Stockholm that I probably stay at but this way is better for me.

Sunday December 5th our flight leaves at 11.55am and it takes us to New York! We arrive there at 2.45pm (local time) we decided to stay there one night. To see a little there as well.
Monday December 6th our flight leaves at 7.05pm (I think it was) from NY and it takes us to Miami where we arrive 10.40pm

Thursday 9th to Monday 13th the cruise is.

Tuesday December 14th the flight goes from Miami at 2.30pm (I think it was) to New York. At 7.30pm our flight leaves New York for Stockholm. And we arrive in Stockholm in the morning n the 15th 9.30am. But my flight home to Skellefteå won't leave until at 5.50pm.. so it will be a loooong wait! I think I will be dead when I come home, because I will be travelling for MANY hours to get home .. I think around 30 or something!
But it will be worth it ;)

The only thing that we haven't booked are hotels, one night in NY, 3 nights in Miami before the cruise and one night in Miami after the cruise! But we have some ideas where we are going to stay!
But I'm sooo excited!!

this is our boat "Carnival Destiny"

2010-05-06T12:32:00.003+02:00

Just got a positive call from work, and I'm really curious how everything will be in a couple of months. Nothing is decided yet or anything, but a positive thing might happend after the summer!
But I really want this! So keep your fingers crossed for me!! :)

2010-05-05T12:43:00.002+02:00

Today I started the day with going to town with my mum!
I did a kinda exciting thing, I got my first passport :) Or I haven't got it yet, but I took pictures and such things, I'll get it in a week or so!
Now I'm even getting more and more excited! Now I have to do some cleaning before I'll go out for a walk!

2010-05-04T11:40:00.005+02:00

I just realized something!
Exactley 5 months ago was a really wonderfull day ♥

2010-05-04T11:06:00.004+02:00

I started this morning like I start many other mornings, with a long walk!
It's so nice to get out in the morning! So now I'm ready for the rest of the day!
I'm going to work later today so I don't have any special plans before than!

I walk here almost every day, this pic wasn't taken today though.. but around 2½ week ago!

2010-05-03T12:04:00.004+02:00

I can't understand why I have had problems with this site?! It seems like I'm the only one, gosh!
But hopefully this site will work better for me now!
So sorry for bad updating lately! Not my fault ;)

Now I have some things to do before it's time for me to get to work!

2010-04-20T18:08:00.003+02:00

FINALLY I have been able to log into my blog! Don't know what has been wrong but if I have been able to log in I couldn't update my blog but now hopefully everything works!

Even if I don't have time to write so much now, I just want you to know (is a really good song btw ;) ) that I haven't stoped blogging or died or anything like that! I just couldn't log in here!

2010-04-03T18:48:00.002+02:00

Have a really nice Saturday everyone!
I know, I will!
I'm soon going to a party =)

2010-03-31T11:53:00.002+02:00

It's Easter this weekend, it feelt like it was yesterday I said at work that it's a looong time till it's Easter and now here it is. Strange how fast time goes sometimes!
Do you have any special plans? Let me know :)

For me I don't have so many plans, I'm working a little, a party on Saturday and than we'll see what happends :)

2010-03-30T16:38:00.002+02:00

Gosh I'm so sorry, don't know what happened the past week, but I have had no time to write here. I have just been really busy!
So what have been up to the last days?! To be honest I don't know :P It feels like I have been doing a million of things but now when I think about it, I can't remember haha!
Let me think.. when I stoped working on Thursday I met my friend Emma and her doughter Ellen and we walked a little in town and ate dinner there, then we walked to our work because we were going to met another friend there Nico, she has just had a baby so we wanted to give her a little present.
On friday morning I first went out for a long walk, really nice! Later I met a friend for lunch, I also went to town, I had some things to buy! I also cleaned my whole appartment that day!
On Saturday I had to go to the grocery store to buy some food and such things. On the night I went to my friend Tina for her birthday party! Which was a lot of fun! We had a really good time! And I don't know what happened that night, because the time passed so quickly! We arrived after 7pm or something like that and I think I came home around 3.20am or something like that.. (or it was 2.20 since we had to change our clocks that night.. but it was 3.20 new time when I got home lol) and it doesn't feel like we where there for so long! I guess that is a good sign :) But we had a lot of fun! And it feelt like going back in time, because back in 2003 me, Tina and Lena were partying the whole summer and just had so much fun together, and it was a long time ago since we 3 partied together!
On sunday, I was just so tired so I was just watching tv all day.. didn't have any energy to write here than :P Even if I wasn't that hangover I was just tired.
Yesterday I was working and laundry all night... today I have continue with my laundry and I've also been to town and done loads of other things. And soon I'm going to the store with my parents... so I haven't had many minutes over. Sorry about that!
I better go and get ready before my parents comes and picks me up! But I give you a few pics
from Saturday!

2010-03-24T06:15:00.001+01:00

I'm on day 8 out of 9 now... so soon I have a life again :P

2010-03-21T09:31:00.002+01:00

Soon I'm going to work, and it's my 5th day out of 9! So I've done half ;) However I have the longest days at work left :P But it's okay!

Today after work I'm going to my parents for dinner! :) I'm going to help my dad with some things so I get dinner as well :)
On friday I went to the movies with a friend of mine, we saw Alice In Wonderland. The movie was pretty good, but special! If I hadn't loved the movie as a child I don't know if I have seen it now. But I was just really curious! But it was good!

Gotta go and get ready for work!

2010-03-18T11:21:00.002+01:00

I'm soon going to make some lunch, but I thought I could give you a quick update first!
At the moment I'm working a lot, I have 9 days in a row now that I will be working and I'm just on my 2nd day now, so I won't have much of a life the next coming days!

This morning I went out for a long walk which was really nice! I was out almost 1½ hour so it was a long walk :)

I still can't believe that I'm actually going on that cruise! And that I'm going to Miami!! It's just insane! I have been dreaming about going on a big cruise for such a long time. And now my dream is becomming a reality! And it's just a big plus that BSB will be there as well! I'm just so excited to go on a cruise haha :)

Well I should be doing some lunch, it will be salmon and potatoes .. yummy :)

2010-03-17T07:08:00.004+01:00

It's already Wednesday!? Oh time goes by really fast!
Anyway, on Monday I added a video blog here, I don't know who was able to see it!? But I had to remove it because it didn't work for me, maybe it did for you?! og well, I removed it. And yesterday I had problem with logging into my blog so I couldn't update it.

Most of you who reads my blog, also have me on twitter or facebook, so I think some of you already knew this. But I told you that on Monday I was so nervous, the whole day was insane, I really couldn't focus on anything haha!
At 5pm the tickets for the BSB Cruise were going on sale! And I wanted tickets sooo badly! The last few minutes before they were going on sale, I almost forgott to breathe haha! And the tickets went onsale and.... WE GOT TICKETS!!! =)) I'm just sooo happy about this! Me and 2 friends got a balcony cabin and it's going to be sooo amazing! The cruise is between December 9th to 13th and this is what's included

4 Nights Accommodations onboard Carnival Destiny
All Meals & Snacks
Coffee, Tea, Iced Tea & Juices
24-Hour Room Service & Pizzeria
Full Use of Ship Facilities: Three Pools, Whirlpools, Fitness Center, Salon, Spa, Casino, Library, Duty-Free Shopping & all Carnival Events
Welcome Cocktail Party
Concert with Backstreet Boys
Photo Session with Backstreet Boys in small groups
Question & Answer Session with Backstreet Boys
Backstreet Boys Experience with all band members
Deck Party
Chances to enter other onboard drawings for exclusive Backstreet Boys Event Opportunities!
Full Access to all of Carnival's activities and facilities!
VIP Concierge at your service!

This sounds just soo AWESOME!! And the cruise goes from Miami to Key West to Cozumel in Mexico and than back to Miami again! We are thinking about going to Miami a few days before too :) We're going to be in Cozumel a whole day which is really cool, and it's just going to be sooo much fun! I still can't believe that I'm actually going :) Now I just have to wait 9 months haha!
This is the ship Carnival Destiny that we will go on :)

2010-03-15T09:47:00.001+01:00

Anna's video didn't seem to work in my first post... I make a new post with it, hope it works here

2010-03-15T09:28:00.003+01:00

Today is a nervous day. But I won't talk about it yet. Just keep your fingers crossed for me today. I will tell you how it went later tonight :P I'm just too nervous to write about it.

Today I have my day off which is really nice, I'm soon going to the supermarket to buy some food. And later I will clean a little I think!
This weekend we had the finale in the "Melodifestivalen" here in Sweden, it's the program where we see which song will be ours in the Eurovision Song Contest. And I must say, I'm happy with the result! It was this song or 2 others that I wanted to win, and those three came 1, 2 and 3 :)

So here is our winner, Anna Bergendahl - This is my life

Here are the other 2 songs that I liked!

Salem Al Fakir - Keep on walkin

Eric Saade - Manboy (the ending is nice lol)

Both Anna and Salem are from the finale on Saturday, but Eric's isn't, it's from the pre-shows where we vote for who we want in the finale. I didn't find his performance from the finale on youtube!

What do you think about the songs?

2010-03-14T07:27:00.002+01:00

A kinda funny thing happened to me the other day, I have been a member on a "dating site" on the internet, I'm not desperate at all in meeting someone, and I kinda like it how it is right now, but I just became a member for fun, and it's always nice to talk to new people.
Anyways, I haven't been so active there, and I only check there sometimes, and the other day when I logged in, I saw that I had gotten an e-mail, and it said "do you remember me? Are you still mad at me?" and I was like WTF, who is this?!
So I checked his page, and luckily he had a photo. And I couldn't stop laughing. This person is a guy that I was seeing a little back in like... 2002 I think?! It was when I was in school. And the thing is with this person is, at that point he was okay for a while but I realized really quickly that I wasn't interested because he had some sides that I didn't like. And I have seen him a few times in town and he just looks awfull (sorry..) now, don't know what happened. Anyways, the last time I met him he was at a party (Tina, when you read this, you know what I'm talking about since you were there that night ;) ) at my place, and it was a really nice evening, but he was interested in me, and I wasn't in him, and I told him no, and he became realle mad at me, and a lot of things happened, he was drunk and just so mad. Which I don't understand, I mean I just said no to him. He was the last person who left the party and he slamed the door, he kicked on my bicycle and just a lot of things. And we had left, I noticed that my cellphone was gone. I searched through the whole appartment and it was just GONE! I soon understand that he had stolen it (there's a lot of reasons why I know that, but there's just a long story) and I was so PISSED! So I e-mailed him about this and he said he hadn't taken it. And that he was going to report me of slander fot the to the police, because apparently his dad was a police. But I just laughed when he said that since I knew 100% it was him (it couldn't be anyone else). But anyways we argued a lot about this. And he never confessed. But we never talked again. And I was happy about that.
We have never talked since than.

And than a few days ago he sends me an e-mail asking if I remember him and still is mad at him, I couldn't stop laughing. I mean, this is such a long time ago, do I even care about this anymore?! Of course not, I mean I'm not happy at him since I still think he stole from me. But I don't care about it anymore, if you know how I mean!?
But it's just funny that he thinks that I still is thinking about this?! haha! OMG! He can't have much of a life... first I wanted to answer his e-mail with some weird comment, but I didn't. Why should I?! I don't care about him anymore, I don't care what the heck he is doing haha!
I just thought that this was kinda funny :P
The other day I also looked around a little on that site and I founf 3 other guys that I have been seeing (some more, some less..) in the past there haha... you just get a really weird feeling when you see pics of them haha :P

2010-03-13T05:49:00.002+01:00

oh gosh I'm so tired right now, I'm going to work soon, it should be forbidden to have to get to work this early a saturday morning.
Oh well... it will do :P

Tonight I don't have any special plans, I think I will be too tired to do anything haha! But I'm working tomorrow as well, but it's okay :)

well I better go now and get ready for work!

2010-03-11T07:32:00.002+01:00

The cruise is coming clooser and clooser for me, it's still not 100% sure, but we are taking about it more and more. I don't want to hope too much, but on Monday we will know since the tickets will go on sale than lol And even if we decide to go, we still need the tickets lol
Anyways, some has asked for the prices of the cruise, here they are...

Inside Cabin starting at $799 per person based on double occupancy
Ocean View Cabin starting at $899 per person based on double occupancy
Balcony Cabins starting at $999 per person based on double occupancy
Suites starting at $1899 per person based on double occupancy
*Additional taxes, fees & gratuities will apply.
$300 per person deposit due at time of booking. $400 per person payment due July 1st, and final payment will be due October 1st.
But if you are 3 or 5 who shares a room it will be a little cheaper. it's a lot of money. But for me it's worth it.
But we'll see... I guess we will find out on monday night if I'm going or not, since the tickets are on sale around 6pm :P

2010-03-09T08:48:00.002+01:00

I have just woken up now, and I'm just really tired. The last nights I have been sleeping very bad, also I have eaten bad, so it's not weird that my body reacts... dizzy.. and feel sick. When you walk around beeing nervous all the time...
I'm just really empty inside .... I have so much things inside me, that I want to write about, but I can't because like I've said before, I don't know who reads here, not that I have bad things to write, but it's just really complicated.
I need some good news at the moment, I need something fun to look forward to. I still don't know how it will be with the bsb cruise, we have all the prices and so, and the money isn't a problem for me. I have them, and I can pay for everything today if I have to. But my friend had to look it up and I totally understand that, it's not that I can talk someone into fallow me, I mean it's still a lot of money. So we will see, I hope we can go!

Well I gotta go now, have to call my mum!

2010-03-08T10:46:00.001+01:00

today I don't feel good at all... I feel dizzy.. I feel sick... I don't know how much more bad news I can take..

2010-03-07T18:15:00.001+01:00

got some really bad news today... gosh I don't know what to do... it's hard to breathe... I can't take this... I just feel so empty inside....

2010-03-07T07:58:00.003+01:00

I woke up really early today, but it has its reasons... I feel a sleep at 7PM yesterday haha! I was just sooo tired. But I think it's because this last week has been hard.
I haven't been sleeping so well since my mum started a new treatment and I have had a lot to think about. And last night I was just at home, doing nothing which was really nice, and well.. I fell a sleep but I needed that :)
So now I'm up and I can't say that I'm so tired now lol
Today I don't have so many plans, I'll probably just stay at home and do some things here that I have to, I just realized that it's snowing today... :( I'm getting so tired of the snow!

2010-03-06T14:01:00.003+01:00

I wanna be happy... I want to have a smile on my face... is it too much to ask for?! Maybe it is... maybe I'm not meant to be happy.......